Wake up and make your life better
Have you ever felt or are you feeling like you could be/do better? As if you’re not working up to your fullest potential? Feeling like you want to accomplish but do not know what to accomplish? Maybe it’s because you’re getting your old skin off and it’s time to run into your new you. This, is called growing.
In the last two years, I was working my ass off 35 hours a week while being a full time college student in a program I hated. But this program would get me a diploma which I needed. My personal life went to shit multiple time, I dealt with anxiety and felt like shit about myself, my body, etc. Got a depression too. However, one day I stopped. I took a break because why the fuck not. I did not sign up for my next session and decided to take time for myself. Didn’t really work at first tho because I signed up for a new position at my job and ended up having more work than ever and that’s when I hit depression. Or she hit me. We both ran into each other. I had to take a job break and the first few days I didn’t do shit. I stayed in bed and ate breakfast morning, lunch and night. I knew I could do better. I knew I had to, for me. So, I started a bunch of different things and tried to put them into my routine to let my old skin behind and start a new chapter, hell a new book. I tried yoga, working out, meditation, started being disciplined with my skincare, kept my room cleaned, went on walks, downloaded an application that can help with libido, self confidence and growth. They did not all work tho.
- Yoga – It helped me the first two months because I was committing to a new thing and seeing progress in the position and calming myself. However, when I started going back to work full time, I stopped giving the time to this but started giving time to something else. It’s okay and I might start yoga again one day.
- Working out – I had bad gym anxiety so I worked out with what I had at home and four months later I pushed myself and got a gym subscription and now I see much more progress, I feel better, I have less headaches I eat healthier, my gym anxiety is there but it’s a bit smaller and I actually like going. This stayed in my routine, it stuck because I disciplined myself about this.
- Walks – Walks are always therapeutic for me. I don’t go on one everyday but when I do it feels good as fuck and I can clear my head. Helps me with overthinking because I try to be in the moment and just enjoy the landscapes.
- Meditation – I’m not doing it enough but I have to push more, it cleans my whole body & mind at the same time.
The truth is, you get what you want IF and only IF you really fucking want it. I want my dream body then I kick my ass to do two more reps four times because maybe it hurts right now but it’ll feel good after. Those are examples of what I did but I did much more and today I see when I make a mistake and I own up to it and say I’m sorry, mean it and then learn from it.
Self growth is so large and it’s a part of our life till the end. You’ll never be perfect, this is not the point, but you can be better and then make this world a better place. It all starts with you. When you work on yourself, you’re immediately giving the world more peace. And if you don’t give a fuck about the world then you’re giving your closed one a sunnier person around them which maybe they need. And if you don’t give a fuck about your closed one or don’t really have some then you’re giving yourself a better shot at a better life and you’re not letting yourself down. And if you don’t give a fuck about yourself, then please read this text from the beginning again.
Think about it for a minute, are you proud of the person you’re becoming? Do you feel it is your full potential? Maybe you don’t want to grow and that’s okay but maybe something happened lately and you reacted in a dumb way and right now you’re like why the fuck would I say/do that? It’s okay we all make mistakes but has this situation happen more than once in different way to you? If yes, you’re not learning or maybe you’re not putting enough effort. Discipline is hard to keep everyday but when you do the results are absolutely wonderful. These are breath taking moments when you realise that you would’ve reacted in a totally different way months ago. That you’ve grown and you’re not doing/saying the same things & having the same mindset.
Have you seen the people that say « You’re stuck in the rat circle of the 9-5 job and routine » well I’m sorry but I think it’s a rat circle only if you’re not making yourself better. We need 9-5 people in this world as much as we need lawyers that work 8 AM – 11 PM, as much as we need the influencers that work in a different routine as much as we need people that work on contracts; sometimes on the weekend sometimes on the week days as much as we need night shift workers. If you make it a rat circle then it’ll be one. I have a 9-5 job right now and I don’t really know if this is what I want to do my whole life but when I’ll be tired I’ll fucking quit. Right now, I do different things each night; tonight, is selfcare, I took time for myself. Tomorrow I’m going out for drinks with my friend I haven’t seen in a long time and the day after I’ll probably just go to the gym and come back and go to bed. This is called growing yourself and romanticizing your life. As long as you’re happy this is the most important thing. And growing eventually makes you happy so please write down or visualise who you want to be and who is the best version of yourself. Where is it waiting for you? Imagine it and put in the work not to be her as fast as possible but to feel better and eventually be her.
You got this and you fucking know it. Get your shit together and move your ass.
You’ll thank me one day.
Mwah.
